Archive for August, 2014
As I am now 89 pounds lighter, I am amazed at the way that people who know me have treated me. Their reactions to my significant weight loss ranges from disbelief, then to shock, and then utter amazement. Very few people seem to know how to extend a compliment about my current look without totally disrespecting my previous heavier look.
Despite other people’s reaction to me, I am certain of one thing. I truly LOVED myself when I was almost 300 pounds because I loved who I was on the inside. Today, as I approach my 90 pound weight-loss, I still love myself and I am proud that God gave me the courage to begin and endure this 5 1/2 month journey that has led me to this point.
I am proud to say that being smaller did not make me a better human being. I did not suddenly wake up smaller and decide that I want to build my non-profit for the enrichment and education of children. I did not suddenly decide that I wanted to sell the very product that helped me to lose 90 pounds in 5 1/2 months. I did not suddenly have a deep compassion for the elderly, single parents, and those who have no support systems. The truth is, I have always been compassionate and passionate toward people and the unfair social issues that they face. In short, despite how I look I am STILL THE SAME PERSON on the INSIDE and the INSIDE of me and the virtues that I hold matter most to me, not the outside of me. So, you may ask, what do I hate most about weight loss? Well, it is the way other people treat me as if I have changed, when in fact the only thing that has changed is “the house” that holds the real me which is the spirit that lives within me.